Agent Joyner

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 13:41:42 GMT

With so many different blogs available I sometimes wonder why I keep jumping ship to the new ones. I have myspace, hi5, xanga, livejournal, and deadjournal but whats the point in all of them? Well I'm not here to rant on these things but to just make a small update post since I haven't here in a long time.

I'm going to china in a week from March 9th until March 19th. I'm hoping that some things turn out well by the time I get back but to be honest with you, I don't know exactly what should happen in order for those things to come out well. I need a slice of mediocrity in my life right now. I'm either hitting at max speed or at a stand still, never in between. I just wish I knew how to do that. I'm either incredibly motivated or I have absolutely no motivation.

This is for any girls who might still read this. My neighbor Regina came over the other day, fussing about wanting some sex. She was telling me that she went to one party with a guy she liked to get some and he ended up leaving her there and not telling her. She got home 3 hours later and he calls her cell phone saying "if you want to come over here you can." Its 4am and she's in my apartment, apparently horny, and asking me(a male) if she should trek back out 20-30 minutes to spend the night and may/may not get some from a guy who was asshole enough to leave her stranded at a party. The bitch could have had me rock her world. I've known her for 3 years and she's always had these conversations with me. She's had sex with guys she told me she utterly hated, guys she's known longer than me, guys she's only know a few days, but never me. I'm only really barking about this because I'm now on 6 months without any and everyone around me is once again bitching about their 2 week vacation from it. I went through this 2 years back when I was on my 3rd or 4th year without and everyone was like "yea its so easy to get some, find a drunk horny girl and its all yours." I found many drunk horny girls and I was never the answer they were looking for. I don't want to sleep with a girl who is looser than my bedroom door but I would like, for once, to be looked at with some desire from someone other than a girl who feels she has to view me that way(a girlfriend). Even If I never commit the act, an offer would raise my spirits, make me feel like I am a male and I'm wanted for what we're put on this planet for, procreation activities. Instead I get lectures about lengths of time without sex, people asking me to hook them up with others, people wanting to use my place as a means to do the deed, or people just telling me all about their great experiences but never offering me a slice of the pie. Now, am I wrong to feel shitty because of this? Does this mean I'm some creep? I don't desire sex, I desire being desired and that's really all I've ever asked out of the female race.

long time no....post

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 23:52:08 GMT

Posting on livejournal has become too much of a hassle now. I use to have the remote updater so all I had to do was click, type, hit update and was done. I cant find it anymore so now I have to go to the main page, log in, and find the button to type a new entry. I also like what xanga offers in that you can preview your journal and go straight into typing a new entry without having to go to the main site. They seem to keep things on the simplier side. Anyhow....

My stint in Japan will soon come to an end. I'm having last minute jibbles in terms of money. I might have to mail back 2-3 boxes of stuff and that will cost me close to 200 dollars. Granted I have a surplus of 2,200 right now, I dont want to blow it all on mailing myself Japanese comics that cost me a total of 10 bucks to buy. I was hoping to use that money to buy into an apartment or solo living house that cost a little more than I'd usually be willing to pay(due to dwindling funds from now 5 years at college). My parents tell me not to worry about it, but being I wish to become financially independent, I have to worry.

One last bit of news, neither good or bad(viewpoints), my grandfather died a day ago and I wont be able to make it back for his funeral. While he's been going downhill fast lately, we all thought he would make it until after I at least got back and then suddenly he went. I'm now down to one last grandparent, his wife. Who knows how she will deal with the news once she finally realizes what it means.

until next time

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 15:06:57 GMT

Its 11:55 on tuesday January 4th here in Osaka Japan. Today was yet another day where I hit rock bottom. I dont pride myself when I reach this plateau of pleasure but I do question why and how this keeps happening to me when I do my GD best to not offend people.

First I thought maybe that Midori girl liked me....turns out every friggin person in japan will jump out of their pants and wave like some retarded 10 year old doped up on 10 lbs of sugar whenever they see you in a public setting. We had met one night and talked about a few things, her and her friend kept coming back to me and asking me things everytime the guys i knew pulled me away from her so I figured....yanno things might be going somewhere but no....they werent.

Then one of the russian girls would come and talk to me once or twice a week. Simple conversations would evolve to discuss past lovers and somewhat personal mistakes we had each made. Conversations that you only have with either a really good friend or someone who might become that next lover. That as well turned out to be a pile of coal. I havent spoken to her since the big music festival, havent really wanted to, to be honest.

Now then there is a girl who does like me...but the whole thing behind it I'll never understand. The thai girl who has a crush on me is leaving on Jan. 30th back for thailand and I will never see her again. She's not too pretty but she is really sweet/nice so just over time I've developed a crush for her. They were going to disney today and she made reference to it a few nights ago, which I would only have suspected to be an invitation. Nope.....they left today without even saying bye to me.

I've been here for 3 months and I havent made one friend. There isnt anyone I can call up to go hang out with. I honestly hate e-mailing 90% of the people on my cell phone because I feel like i'm actually bothering them or wasting their time. Most people back home would at least drop me an e-mail or a voice mail once in a while just to let me know they still thought about me but not anyone here. I've been as nice as I could be with some of these people....even as far as letting them borrow my computer for a day or two. Have I gotten any real respect back? NO. Its like...when they want to learn english I'm always needed and a good friend. When I need help with Japanese....they dont have time to talk.

I am really thinking about going home in feb and not coming back. Its getting on my last nerve. There is nothing here truely worth all this boredom that I endure, and certainly nothing worth all the trouble I've caused with my own emotions. ECU has always been dull to me....I dont party, I dont club, and I'm not exactly an exciting person anyways but never was I so bored or lonely that I got to the point where I'd cry just because I wanted to be able to drive somewhere random and HAVE A FUCKING CONVERSATION ABOUT ANYTHING. I cant do that here. No one speaks english beyond "here or to go?" and no one understands my Japanese since its so bad. :(

I hear the russians walking the halls.....BLAH!

PSP and More!

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 07:06:03 GMT

The PSP was released in Japan yesterday with the unit most likely selling out at every retailer that had units in stock. I was going to go get in line and wait to pick one up but I had a prior agenda made that I had to follow through on, I had promised to perform alongside of numerous other foreign students in Japan at the Osaka Foreing(how they spelled it) Students Music Festival. Two of my classmates performed songs solo in their native tongues(Thai and Chilean) and each did a pretty good job. Half of the show was just people doing raps or J-lo type dances to hip hop songs. I was expecting more traditional things but it wasnt so. I'll try to upload the song we sang later so you have an idea of what exactly I was singing. I'll edit this and put up a link at that time.

It also put to rest(well kinda) how the Russian girl Natasha felt about me. She had on different occasions sent me pictures of herself with e-mails that I sent to her. I've gone up to her room 4-5 times to help her with english translation(she reads chicken soup for the soul) and we'd end up talking about things way off topic ranging from dirty words to past relationships to things we like. Yesterday, while on an hour long break before the concert, she asked me to go walking around town with her, leaving her fellow russian Dasha behind. We talked about winter plans and things that we each wanted to do during the holidays. She has a full schedule of things to do but saddly I end up making up stuff as I go. She told me that she'd be glad to have me tag along if its alright with all her other friends. This of course gives me the impression that things are turning up more n more.

Later that day, right before we go on stage, dasha takes my phone, takes pictures of natasha, and puts an edited pic up of her as my background. Yanno, I realize I always overanalyze the stuff but it just seems to keep pointing in one general direction. Later on, we were coming back to the dorm by ourselves because everyone else wanted to stay at the party and chat with audience members(i was personally sick of the whole thing by then and just wanted to SLEEP). She started talking about this guy from venesuala(sp is wrong) that she's liked for some time and how he was supposed to come study in japan this year but didnt and how she was really upset because she really liked him. She has a big thing for spanish music and language, which she let me sample a few s-pop cds, and this sends me the other way. Now i'm thinking ok, theres nothing there.

After we get off the train it starts raining and the koban(kinda like police man but mostly just to help out) hands her an umbrella because she didnt have one. As we're walking up the hill she asks me to hold the umbrella so I can be under it too and puts her arm around mine(the one holding the umbrella) and asked me if I have heard or understand aiaikasa(love love umbrella). I told her no because I didnt know what it was(only what it translated to) to just have her say she'd tell me later when she could draw it out. Turns out, you draw and umbrella and put two names under it. Similar to the heart in america with the two names in it. This really just alsjkfljasfdlajsdf me.

The whole day was confusing. I dont really think she has anything for me, but theres times when I just want to hold someone and then I start taking everything the wrong way. It is nice to finally have a female here I can talk to, if nothing else. I already have 10-20 male friends and lord, its too much sausage.

My host family is having a christmas party on dec. 22 and I need to find out if any of my friends would like to come to it. I'm sure most of them are already going to things and I'm not sure I want to put them on the spot again(translating things for me every 10 minutes). I love meeting people and speaking japanese with them, but I feel like total crap when they have to break it down just for me to understand. I'm such a 2 year old in an adult's world.

An even bigger bigger update on midori chan

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 03:17:12 GMT

The cunt e-mailed ben and said it would be best if we stayed friends. HOLY SHIT! I say holy shit only because we never even were friends in the first place. I was e-mailing her hoping thta I could set up some ways to get to know her as a friend. SO wtf is up with this friends crap? And why didnt she e-mail me and tell me this? Why ben?

god I so want out of Japan NOW!

update on midori chan

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 06:51:41 GMT

Consider it over and done with. I had e-mailed her asking her if I could join her for lunch, with hopes of just getting to know somethings about her better. It would have included just me and her friends, which would make things easier as far as communcation was concerned. Saddly, since ben got involved in all this shit, I had lost a lot of faith from the beginning.

Ben started e-mailing her thanking her for the e-mail and like an idiot made note that he didnt know who midori was(even though she gave him the damn e-mail) so midori starts thinking ben was trying to get her friend yuki's e-mail(yuki was with midori at the time). This causes mass confusion as ben starts telling me that the e-mail address I have is really yuki's e-mail address and not midori's.

I e-mailed to ask who's it was just to make sure things got sorted out, and we came to find that it really was Midori's e-mail and that ben is just a total fucking idiot. I decided to make one final e-mail asking if we could join for lunch. This was at 8am on Wednesday. Ben also e-mailed her aplogizing for something, who knows what.

At about 2pm we run into Midori's best friend, Chaou and ben decides to start talking to her about the shit. Chaou says that Midori isnt really interested in me and would prefer if we just communicated on occasion via e-mail. I take that as ok time to move on aka NEXT! Ben keeps prying away as if I have to be with this girl. Turns out the whole group thought I was 29 years old and that might be why some of the shit happened, but I still said OH WELL, NEXT. Ben told me to shut up.

I wake up to an e-mail at 8am on thursday saying sure join me for lunch. So....this girl already put off answering my e-mail for 24 hours, obviously assumes i'm some 29 year old geezer and doesnt want shit to do with me. I dont care to deal with that. I was upset and said oh well. Ben on the other hand says I have to go eat lunch with the girl when I'm upset at his persistance, midori's misunderstanding, and then her inviting me to lunch after obviously telling friends she didnt want me around. I'm sorry but I dont want to deal with that crap.

So needless to say I didnt go to lunch with midori, but ben did. He said he told them I was a total dickhead and asshole, blah blah blah. Whatever. I had said the previous night that no matter what kind of bullshit apology e-mail I got, I wasnt gonna go. Even if I was 29....why couldnt we eat lunch together? I mean shit, obviously its cool if ben at 32 tags along but not me at 29?

The communication barrier is too skewed for me to even care anymore. I cant stand it when someone doesnt even understand a small fraction of how I feel. I am not going to try and throw myself into a pit of dispair over it. Even if she really did like me, I somehow doubt after today there is a chance. Oh well.....

My life has been nothing but me ruining good things, so why stop now?

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 00:37:47 GMT

My day yesterday.

I woke up at around 7 after not getting much sleep, due to late night studying until 3 or 4 am. I studied for about an hour more before fixing some eggs, bacon, and hash browns. I still need to find some spices to help make those eggs taste better. Ran to class and made it about 2 minutes late(which is fine) and then went right through the test. There were some questions on there that I didnt recognize as material we had covered but I did my best anyways.

See, we have these "vocab" tests where each section contains around 80-120 words that we need to know for the next class, wether its a day later or over the weekend. We study our tails off only to find out its got just 10 questions on things we didnt study that well or stuff we never would have thought to study. I mean, they call it a "vocab" test yet theres very little vocab even on it. Not much I can do but study harder. Thankfully the lowest i've gotten is a 7/10.

After class I ran into a few girls I met the previous Friday while sitting in English class(I did it as a joke, the professor is from Virginia). I gave them a big smile and a friendly hello as they passed. Ben caught up to me as they passed and had me refresh him on who they were. Immediately after that, two more girls passed by and said good morning, so I returned the favor. Ben didnt have a clue who they were so I held off telling him as long as I could. One of the girls was Midori(Midori-chan), a girl I have a crush on. As soon as he heard the name, he whipped around and cut her off. I kept walking, only to get an e-mail from ben 15 minutes later that contained her e-mail address.

I met Midori on the night I dressed up as Spiderman. I had been asked by the boys soccer club to join them for dinner so I humbly accepted and tagged along. Before we left campus to go, Midori crept up to me and asked me If I thought she was cute(in english) yet I had the nerve to tell her to hold on because I was answering an e-mail from my(at that time) girlfriend. In Japan, if a girl knows you have a girlfriend, she will run and cower from you basically. Generally speaking, in America, girls try to fight for your attention if you have a gf, as if you are some prize to win over. Not in Japan. So since I've split with my gf, I've been seeing Midori nearly every day just walking from class to class. I've tried building up the courage to just ask her for her e-mail but I have reverted to the extremely shy jon of old. Thus, ben decided it was his job to get it for me.

After that I brought my computer to campus to have a Japanese friend help us translate our project into Japanese so we could present it to the class. The guys like joking around with me because I have porn on my computer so they started calling it the erocon(persocon is personal computer so erocon would be porno computer). Its all in fun....i think?

Around 4:30 I went and met with Kyo and Atsushi to discuss their wanting to start up an English Debate club. Kyo had been sending me super cute e-mails and ben kept saying all these things to piss me off(yes telling me a girl likes me does piss me off). Turns out she does think I'm cute......but we dont know if thats in a "aww he's cute" kinda way or he acts in a cute way kinda way. We were there for around 4 hours just talkin about random things(from dating habits to education systems to universal studios...dont ask). Ben ended up setting up a "date" with Kyo on Sunday....so beyond what ben likes to think, he does get around with more women than I do. I havent even made it past the e-mail phase with any of the girls I know, and with most of them I havent even made it that far.

After that I came back home, ate a pizza, watched some married with children episodes and went to bed. One of my more busy days but not the busiest of days. Today I have to present the presentation we made up yesterday, so hopefully that will flow out fairly well as the last thing I want to happen at this point, is failure.

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 01:43:02 GMT

To follow up my last posting that I made last night, I felt like updating everyone on exactly where I am with things.

I just went through a breakup with a girl I had great feelings for, she still believes that I didnt even care for her. Quite the contrary.

I'm living in Japan until next september as part of an exchange program. My main focus is to study the language, which I'm slowly becoming better and better at. After the previous event(the breakup) i've been trying to gain enough confidence just to talk to girls here. Not even in a "i have to have you" kind of way, just a "i'm tired of having nothing but guy friends" kinda way. I got so close yesterday but chickened out, so yes, the Jon of old has returned.

I will be coming home in Feb and stay until April. Its a 2 month spring break here so I wanted to take advantage of it by coming home instead of sitting here and rotting away. I also wanna see the Bobcats(nba) play a game or two while I'm down for the break.

Thats all there is for now, any other posts I make will definately go into more detail about things that have occured here.

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 16:46:10 GMT

I havent updated this journal in forever. I've been posting on Xanga for the past 4 months or so but I'm thinking about returning to this journal simply because most people have forgotten it exists and constantly read it daily. I would rather just abandon it than make some entries private while some not. Its too much of a hassle esp. if I forget to make an entry private and end up having someone read it that I didnt want reading it. We'll see how that goes. I will also start reading up on people's journals to see how things are and drop a few comments as I catch up.

Hope everyone's been doing great though.

Downfalls of being non-profit......

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 15:51:31 GMT

I'm updating this while all the computers I'm working on do their thing. It's not exactly the ideal kind of volunteer work but it gets the job done. I could be doing something worse, like dealing with a bunch of under-aged retards(aka kids). So far all of these computer are running windows 98, most of them only have 64mb ram, have never been updated to fix security errors, have loads of spyware, porn, and viruses, have never been defragged, nor has scandisc been run. They've had these computer for at least 2 years according to the woman in charge of the place and none of this stuff has been done. They did, however, get norton 2003 but only installed it, never updated it when they'd run the virus scan.

If anyone knows how to get a computer running windows 98 to stop trying to access the a:\ drive then please reply with a good response. I've done google searches for at least 2 days now and still cant find a solution that works. Its killing me, and not because I cant figure it out, the noise it makes is annoying after 5 minutes.

The computer I'm typing on is my baby in this office. Its the fastest running one they have and its in its own little corner. What I have been doing is starting up the various scanners on the other computers and then retreating to this one and saying that I'm looking up fixes and patches to put on the other computers. Of course I'm doing homework and posting on livejournal but shhhhh. I will say this organization has good intentions and they're doing as good as they can with what they've got but I just wish that there were more ways to raise money so some of these places with good intentions had more to work with. Its kind of sad to know that places like red cross get loads of donations a day, and somehow always end up misspending it, yet places like this who try to get people unemployed, basically have to hold pools or bake sales just to buy a printer so their participants can print out their resumes.

Its nearly time for class....and also time to turn in my 9 page self reflection paper. I could have written at least 15 pages about myself but she said she wanted it to be specifically about our skills related to what career we want to go into. I hope I was able to keep it on task....its due in a week and it gets critiqued today. I have confidence that I can get it all worked out and turned in on time for the final class. Only time will tell.

proof

Sat, 05 Jun 2004 23:33:28 GMT

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elmodem is stalking you because you got better results for the 'acronym' thing than them. They are also prank calling you regularly!

LJ Stalker Finder
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so tracy....dont think I dont know

Harry Potter

Sat, 05 Jun 2004 06:48:28 GMT

The latest harry potter movie is a bit of a dark one, so if your into tim burtonesque darkness then I advise that you give this one a try. While I wasn't overly impressed with this movie I will say that I wasn't unimpressed. So far the potter series has captured my attention on film(have yet to find time to pick up and read the books) and I will continue to give them my attention until they turn me away completely. Don't go in expecting it to follow the book(as per usual) and its actually my advise that you read the book after you see it(something i've done which imo helps make the experience better). All in all I gave it a 7 out of 10. John Williams did the music(havent checked to see if he did the others) but the soundtrack was a notch over the previous versions in my mind.

Hopefully you'll enjoy the movie.

PS - I still enjoyed this movie even though a bitch nearly ruined my night. I made a pact never to help people buy tickets unless they give me the money first. This one girl kept begging me to help her out since she was in raleigh until 8 so I said sure I'll buy you, me, and your friend a ticket so long as you pay me back the instant these touch your greasy palms. She called me at 10:15 asking if I had bought the tickets(the movie started at 10:30) and I was like yea i'm up front. She goes well I didnt expect you to buy them, I reminded her that she had my word that I'd do it, and she let me konw that she just wasnt too certain so she had someone else pick up tickets. All in all I spent 21 dollars to see this movie and I'm not upset. I will remind the girl once that she should still pay me back for these tickets and if she does not then I will drop it. Of course this means that I will never do her another favor unless she were to bend over and let me ream her a new asshole first. Good night.

prepare to see something scary....

Thu, 27 May 2004 21:35:14 GMT

I'm going to LJ cut this because its a pretty big picture. If you want to see it...click the link....its not really as "scary" as you might think but any pictures of me I happen to find scary. So if Jon makes you squeemish...dont click! You have been warned.....

I've been working on getting myself into 3d and am slowly teaching myself how to use certain 3d applications. By the time I return from Japan I want to have made at least a 2 minute movie fully in 3d featuring me and a couple other people(whomever decides to be my pray). I will go as far out with it as I can go. I'm gonna in clude soft bodies(ie clothes n such), physics(even though i suck at it), and of course EXTREME LIGHTING!!!!(lots of shadows).

I'll put up more and more details as they arise. BTW I hate summer school....esp summer school that requires you not only do 3 months worth of work in 5 weeks...but also requires you to do volunteer service while you do this work. Blah!

just a small update

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 20:25:09 GMT

Today's update comes with a small sigh of relief....mind you only a small one.

Yesterday my video teacher decided that trying to film 2 projects in 2 weeks actually was a bad idea. It took us on average, 2 weeks to shoot each other video we did....even the 30 second PSA we shot took a week to prepare and a week to shoot/edit. He wanted us to do a 10 minute documentary and a 5-10 minute experimental short movie all in a two week time frame. This troubled most of us considering we also have finals in the next week, and projects for some. He dropped off the experimental short movie(which I would have wanted to do over the documentary) and siad that he wanted the documentarys to be even better. So that helps me breathe a little easier at night, but there is still that bar he wants us to leap over.

Also....I had forgot to mention that there were a few other scholarships open to me for the Japan trip.....but not anywhere near as good as the AIEJ one that I was banking on. The AIEJ one was worth nearly 12k overall so it would have essentially been a free ride to japan. I also applied for one called the Bridging Students Scholarship where I can earn up to 4k for a full year. 100 people are awarded this one so chances are I wont even see this thing.....i'm sure its going to be hard to win it as is, my gpa isnt exactly stellar. The last one I can apply for is the Rivers scholarship offered by ECU, and the most money I can get out of that thing is 1,500. The most likely value i'd get out of that is 500. Yes thats 500 that I dont have to spend....but when you look at the costs of flying there.....that alone will cost me around two thousand dollars, so 500 wont do shit for me.

Now if i get the 1,500 and the 4,000 then i'll def be in heaven....cuz thats more than nothing at all which is most likely what I'll be getting. This also means I wont be purchasing a laptop at all to take to japan....so I"ll either be without a computer for the whole 12 months...or i'm gonna hve to figure out a way to get my huge 50lbs tower over to Japan w/o breaking any part of it(good luck). I think it'd cost me close to 300 dollars just to ship a computer barely worth 400 over seas....and then I'd have to bring it back....OI VEY!

I'll rant on that crap some other time......I'm just glad that I have a partially empty and blank weekend for a change......

Japan, Here I Come!

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 14:20:57 GMT

By reading the subject line you can pretty much tell what happened this morning. I got my acceptence letter from Osaka University in Japan. I am extremely disappointed that I didnt get the AIEJ Scholarship. That would have netted me around 13k free cash on a trip that I could have budgeted for around 9k. Basically, I was banking on that so I could get a new laptop to take with me overseas, but now it seems i'm left with two choices.....to reject the offer and go ahead and graduate, thus saving me time and money, or go ahead and go through with it, and end up spending upwards of 20k for a single year, instead of the typical 10k I spent at ECU. I'm sure I'll still go, as its really something I've been looking forward to for some time.

Departure time is October......I'll have from July till October empty....so if any of you freaks on my friends list want me to pay you a visit....this would be the best time. Never know when Mr. Bin Laden is feeling lucky again.

I'll update more later....i gotta run to class for now.

LJ Client

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 13:16:30 GMT

I finally downloaded an LJ client so this will obviously increase my journal updates. I always hated trying to get the LJ site(as slow as it loves being) to load up just so I could type a link or two for you guys to chuckle at. I dont have much to type right now because I just woke up but I have a few little japanese tidbits to throw at you just for the hell of it.

Today's Japanese Lesson

I will break down this phrase into 4 parts, Kanji, Kana, Romaji, and English translation. Why am I doing this? It will help reinforce some of the things I learn in class as well as piss off those who can read it so when I get it wrong they can jump my ass till I get it right. I do live next door to someone who can speak it pretty fluently, but he loves just throwing advanced vocab at me all day long knowing I dont even know the word for shoe yet. Here we go.

Kanji: 子のびーる冷たく四手下さい

Katakana: コノビールオツメタクシテクダサイ

Romaji: Kono Biiru o tumetaku site kudasai.

Translation: Please chill this beer.

and a special one for Sarah xxspewbunnyxx

オパエミセテ
opae misete

:)

Video project update

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 01:28:01 GMT

Gill hates me...I know it.....
He said that our storyboard wasnt as good as he wanted it to be so he wants us to redo it by the time we turn the music video in. Now we did come up with a stroke of genius that will help us get the storyboard done quicker than last time, taking the pics on a digicam and getting them developed at our local eckerd. Before we were drawing and scanning them into word which ate up around 1 hour per 12 drawings we did, with there being 50 drawings before.

Today we started shooting our music video, I was up at 5:30 for a shoot that was to start at 7. I had everyone awake and on their way to steve's house for this big undertaking. What really got me though, was the one guy I made sure to know we were meeting at steve's house didnt go to steve's house, he went to the location of our first shot. Now if he had called us and told us that then we'd be in the money. Instead, we ended up waiting from 6:45 till 7:30 before he even contacted us(he wasnt answering his phone). Originally I had guessed we'd be done with part 1 or 4 by 8, when we didnt even get done with the first part till 9:10. The 40 minute delay was mostly to blame for this, but the guys just seemed like lame ducks when it came to shooting. We had two directors, two cameramen, and two actors. Both of the directors ended up doing everything from lighting, camera setup, shot selection, direction, etc. My goal was to have all but 2-3 shots done today, but in the end we only got days 1, 3, and part of 4 done. Tomorrow we will need to shoot the rest of day 4, and then shoot day 2.

I am really relieved that this crap is almost done with, you just do not understand how great I felt after we wrapped up our first day of shooting. It was just good to know that we finally did something instead of sitting around and just playing with our crotches.

Music Video - Everlong

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 01:12:11 GMT

This isnt the music video I'm currently working on, but its part of the one I put together last semester. Its around 30mb and you need the latest Divx codecs to watch it.

Everlong

I saw this on Angst's Journal and stole it....hehe

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 14:29:23 GMT

You are a.. GEEK! You love fantasy, Everquest,
games, possibly have emo-ish tendencies, and
you know enough about computers to rival Bill
Gates. Ph33r your 3133t haxx0r skillZ!

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Breakdown

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 14:24:06 GMT

I have returned yet again. This semester is by far one of the WORST semesters I've ever had, but at the same time its had its pluses.
I'm currently taking Advanced Video Production under Lovender Gill. You may one day hear of this glorious film director/professor because he continues to make pointless indy films that will go straight to vhs. So the odds are you will one day use one of his tapes to hold up your bedside table. Anyways, this guy is total asshole and he wants to be that way, he makes note of it on day 1. I've been approx. 1 min late for the last 3 classes and he told me to my face, that if i'm late anymore it will affect my grade. ONE GOD DAMNED FUCKING MINUTE is SHIT. I could understand if he had started lecturing or if something super important was going down but none of the above had applied really. The first time I was late, everyone was setting up for their presentations and i missed nothing. The 2nd day, same thing. The most recent time, we were taking a test that day and all I missed was him handing out the paper. He told me if i was late on the final it would be a 0 for it. What really pissed me off was I was late on thursday because I had to take my Japanese oral midterm at 10:45(the only time slot open). We ended up running over the 10 minutes by 5 and thus I was late for my vid class. I told him that but all he did was point to my previous total lateness of 2 minutes(woop de fuckin do). I also lost 5 points on that test because of that one minute. Now 3 total minutes of being late does not = an absense from class(a 75 minute class). As I thought to myself, I would have been better off just not going to any of those classes if he was going to count them as a full fucking absense. We learned nada and did nada. Talk about a total bone job.

Then comes my video project. I've been secretly working on a video for sensei because she's not going to be at ECU next year. I'll bring a couple cameras to class and film stuff, keeping the good moments and will use them in the final. Its basically a big farewell video to let her know we enjoyed her time here and that she's made it special. While all this is going on though, Gill decides that anal probing me is a good idea. He assigns everyone a music video project(no problem) but to a shitty song "if you love somebody" by sting. Not only that but he decides to give me the most unmotivated fuck for a partner. The guy would constantly talk about how he only wants to be a cameraman for a sports game and has no drive to do video editing, production, etc. Thats great to know. He also liked to complain that he had work on all the nights we were supposed to meet to write up a story for the video, coming over after work only to complain that he was too tired to think about the video. I ended up writing up the whole story, coming up with costumes, locations, lighting, and pace. Then came our presentation of it, I wrote up the entire speech(mine was nearly all adlibed), i paid for the 16 page packet to be made with color pictures, and I got 5 hours of sleep over a 3 day period worrying about the damn thing ONLY to get a 92 on it. What made me even more mad....my partner rob, decided to take it upon himself and nominate our video to be filmed. He did this because the teacher said those videos that get filmed will earn those that made it higher overall grades. The 2 days later he tells me he wishes he hadnt done so, and well, NO SHIT cuz i've done all the work and gotten little accomplished. I spoke with 3 restaurants and got shafted. The mall said I could shoot there but with around 50 stipulations and I also had to have it shot by yesterday, which was impossible with all the help i've been getting, none. We were also given 3 more partners to work on this to make it easier, but its only gotten harder. Steve always acts like he has no clue whats going on, and even with all the girls he knows, he for some reason cant get even one to help out. Josh just sits there and nods yes to everything I say, which rob was already a yes man so I didnt need a 2nd one. Matt hasnt even been to one meeting because he's on the baseball team and they've been playing games everyday since last friday. This was originally due this coming tuesday but with my stooge group, we'd be lucky to have this thing shot by Christmas. Its now due the first tuesday after spring break and my group has settled for shooting this over spring break(the one time I was hoping to get a break).

What pisses me off even more is that Gill has stated that we are going to be getting e-mails within the next week from another class. We have to work with those guys and shoot a PSA based on what script they came up with. Talk about a total fuck job. We havent even shot one shot for our music video and we have to already start working on a PSA. I swear...if I have one more nervous breakdown because of the incompetence that I work with I will take Gill's head off with a sharpened DVD and play soccer with it. I'll film it and put that shit on his next indy vhs.

Now the positives.....I've started talking and hanging with more people than usual. Not all the time, but enough that when we see each other we have interesting conversations about people, class, life, etc. Being i'm not the most interesting person, its hard to see me as a busy body and meeting everyday. There has also been a few meetings with our sensei for dinner which turned out to be very very fun. She's also going to fix our class a true japanese dinner before she leaves which I'm definately looking forward to.

On that same japanese note.....yesterday(friday) I spent all day running from place to place getting a physical done so that I can study in Japan next year. On monday I get my paperwork back with everything completed and ready to turn in. Hopefully I'll also qualify for the scholorship they are offering which covers a plane ticket there and back, 250 cash on arrival, and 800 a month for whatever. I do still have to pay ecu tuition but thats it....room n board will be 100 a month with everything but food included. Wish me luck......I'm really looking forward to the experience.

I'll update you guys if things change.....but by golly I hope they do....i cant take another day of crying, shaking, and worrying.

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 15:28:53 GMT

The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz

Once again its been a while since my last update...yes I know, I need to get to it. I've had major computer issues lately, having to basically pay someone to reformatt my computer because it refused to let me do it. I'm now 50% back where I was before the format and hope to be back up within the week. On a side note i've now built my 2nd computer by hand for my brother and only spent 1/3 of what I spent on mine. The reason I note that is becasue his is a kick above mine in performance for only 1/3 of the cost. Of course its to be expected with the lapse of time.

Those of you who do read my journal i should be back for at least a bi-weekly update, I have much to discuss with all of you. Mostly dealing with the stupid girls I encounter, but there are some other "new" things. I'll also do as much catching up on all my friends journals as I can. Its been nearly a month since I've been able to read them so I know i've got quite a few to wade through.

oh how i miss thee

Mon, 29 Dec 2003 15:42:47 GMT

I havent been posting lately and thats been completely my fault. I've had a load of trust issues with people arise lately and its really got me wondering what to do about certain things. There are some people I talk to online that I'd love to meet and chill with because I need more to do other than rotting in my apartment day after day. Most of the friends I have now work all day basically leaving it impossible for me to talk with them. I do enjoy the time off more now that I dont work but its still not as fun as when I worked. I constantly got to talk to people about their lives and what not. It made me feel wanted or at least thought of when I usually wouldnt. Quitting work nearly proves not many people think about me, simply because i've given away my phone number to numerous people and said hey, call me if you throw a party or want to chill. no calls.....cept from jackie....who somehow still manages to call at the right time and always cheers me up. I do wish she'd call for more than 15 minutes at a time but beggers cant be choosers. I pray that she gets to come visit for spring break......i havent seen her in 3 1/2 years so her company would be most welcome.

so the question now is...should I invest in getting my job back?(which i was told would be there for me if i wanted it) or should I just take up something like tae quan do? Should I do neither? I'm only taking 4 classes this semester so things should be pretty easy. I'm also gonna start filling out my paperwork to go study in japan. I somehow got the grades I was praying for and it put me right at the 2.75 needed to study abroad. I'm also hoping I can work it enough and qualify for the scholarship and use it to buy a new laptop that I can take with me over there. The last thing I'm trying to figure out as far as the trip goes, should I stay for 6 months or 12 months. If i stay 12 months, I can get accepted into the JET program a lot easier(teaching english in japan) but theres also the chance I get sick of being in japan before the 12 months are up, being I cant come back until the 12 months were up. If I choose to do 6 months and then 12 months, I'd have to fly back, renew my student visa, then return to study meaning more money spent.

Yes i think too much into things.....i blame that on having too much time to think about things.

oh and I hope everyone had a great holiday, whatever it was you celebrated(or didnt). Take care all.

SADDAM = OWN3D

Sun, 14 Dec 2003 12:22:57 GMT

we have caught that fucker....YES!

Saddam Caught

some people.....

Thu, 11 Dec 2003 21:56:48 GMT

yanno....sometimes you cant help but get things off your chest
well i feel i need to come clean about this......
i also realize that no sooner than i type this I"m gonna get railed for saying it
but susan(toffeecat) is a dork
there, its out on the open and off my chest

fill this out....if you dare mwahhahaaha

Wed, 03 Dec 2003 15:33:39 GMT

I borrowed this from miss spewbunny

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?